What in the world should i do? ?

I am so stressed that its getting to the point that I almost feel like I need to be admitted to the psych ward. My son is in foster care and we are fighting to get him back. The pediatrcian we no longer want to see is confusing us and we suspect she's lying. We have been going through this since November. I just want my son back. They acused us of neglect which is a crock of sh*t. Now, my dad is in the hospital 900 miles away and having a second knee surgery tomorrow. Due to a bad fall. He almost 60. I have health issues that are driving me crazy and I don't feel well. I don't know what to do. If I tell my boyfriend how bad I feel he will fly off the handle and think I'm suicidal which I'm not sure I am. Obviously I can't tell my dad and my mother is in heaven. What in the world should I do?